27 February 2009 • Friday

Okay, I’m confessing that I haven’t been entirely successful in utilizing this new blog as a motivator. Have been struggling to focus lately (and will assemble a post to retroactively examine that) but the good news is that I’ve finalized my foundational résumé and have actually submitted it to a potential employer for a job that I’m actually interested in. And who’s located close by! Even if it leads nowhere, it’s a step in the right direction for my psyche if not my career.

p.s. I like this WordPress theme (“Neat”) for its simple elegance but am annoyed that by default it formats all paragraphs to full justification.


“Let’s lack no discipline, make no delay: For, lords, tomorrow is a busy day.”

17 February 2009 • Tuesday

Jean-François Millet, Des glaneuses (1857)
Discipline, schmiscipline.

No, truthfully, one of my goals in establishing this new blog is to keep myself motivated and on track in finding new employment and figuring out some large chunks of the rest of my life. As such, I intended to post in a disciplined manner and on a frequent basis; it lasted for all of three days. But that’s of course no reason to abandon the enterprise altogether (not that I was considering such an (in)action anyway); I’ve always been better at following the spirit of the law rather than the letter of the law and in this case there weren’t even any letters!

Another, perhaps better, quote for the post’s title might have been this one from Bruno Bettelheim:

The only effective discipline is self-discipline, motivated by the inner desire to act meritoriously in order to do well in one’s own eyes, according to one’s own values, so that one may feel good about oneself may “have a good conscience.”

–B. Bettelheim, A Good Enough Parent, 1987.

But, in this blog I organically established a pattern of using a literary quote for titles and (mostly) using fine artworks for initial illustrations, so… by choosing the Shakespeare quote (Richard III, V.iii.1) I’m actually being disciplined and setting a good example for myself.

New post to follow anon.


“In every parting there is an image of death.”

05 February 2009 • Thursday


George Eliot‘s words may be true, but I’m keeping in mind that she specifies merely an image of death, not the real thing. From there one can extrapolate to whether it is in fact darkest just before the dawn, whether every cloud has a silver lining, and if a window does in fact always open whenever a door is closed. But I digress. (Note that the aphorisms don’t specify if the dawning day is going to be overcast, how shiny or pure that silver is, nor how wide said window opens. But I digress yet farther.) Read the rest of this entry »


“After all, tomorrow is another day!”

04 February 2009 • Wednesday

Wanderer über dem Nebelmeer · Caspar David Friedrich (1818)

Nascent. Embryonic. Nebulous. These words describe the state of this blog and, not incoincidentally, the state of my search for new employment.

I was at my previous job for 16 years. It was in a niche field and at a place I was uniquely qualified for; I never seriously enough considered the idea of doing something else. Unfortunately, conditions had over many years inexorably deteriorated both in the nature of the work and with a very small number (2) of dysfunctional but crucially placed ‘colleagues.’ Much as one doesn’t realize, due to day-to-day interaction, how far one’s increasingly dilapidated auto is from the bare minima of drivability or how much one’s child has grown in size and spirit, I failed to see the extent of my discomfort and despondency, how I dreaded each new day. And so, with exquisite timing, I admitted to the absolute untenableness of the situation and found, perhaps surprisingly not regrettably, that I had no other choice but to resign. Yes, in the middle of the worst financial crisis in 70 years. Does that not speak to the enormity of it all?

Today my jobsearch agenda includes the following tasks:

  • investigate what is entailed in filing for unemployment benefits.
  • outline my résumé
  • begin scanning on-line classifieds to get a sense of
    • what’s available locally
    • what’s available for immediate, short-term (from my point of view) employment
    • what long-term/career paths are appropriate for me, my strengths, and my skills.

“Freedom! Horrible, horrible freedom!”

03 February 2009 • Tuesday

M&Co "5" · Tibor Kalman (1984)

As of today, I have officially joined the vast, teeming ranks of the Unemployed. This blog is to be a journal of and a means of maintaining my endeavors to once again become a functioning and contributing member of workplace society.

Wish me luck.